I have over the past 4 years had 3 attempted relationships that have failed horribly. Sometimes I wonder to myself if I will ever find to love…will I ever be happy with someone again? I began taking “depressing” Portraits to get my point across but yet encouraging others all at the same time…
I have recently found myself excepting any Guy I can get out of desperation to fill the emptiness that has been within me this past year. I am not proud of the person I have become because I know I have better morals then the morals I was displaying for all those to see.
When I was younger (even though I was always sick), I was the happiest girl in the world. I hated nobody, encouraged others and had everyone as my friends. I had no reason to complain because I had an amazing life. In life we always want more then what we already have. I am a very content, happy, sarcastic, friendly person. I don’t get angry quickly and everyone is my friend. But I’ve come to notice that when I have something wrong or I’m excited about something I have no one to tell because I don’t have a “BFF”. In the last couple of months I have gotten desperate to find “My Person” a friend or a lover. Someone who I can tell my stories and pain to. Someone to give me a big hug and say “Hang in there Bex, it will all be okay!!”
Ive asked myself over and over after my ex once said “mmm Maybe one day after you get your license we can date, it would be a lot easier!” Is my Seizures really getting in the way of me ever having a good relationship? Surely people who cant drive date all the time..
-I found this coffee cup once at Walmart-
Ive come to the realization that life isn’t all about dating, it is about living life for God and if he has a man set aside one day for me then I will be willing to wait. God knows my future, I do not.
In the bible God tells us …
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
— Jeremiah 29:11New International Version (NIV)
I have slowly found my answer for my Love. I hope you do too.
If anyone is ever looking to talk or need a prayer request please let me know. I would love to get to know you and pray for you!